The Voice Boxer's word is law, and her fist is the enforcer.

11:03AM

Oh my god the cast list for Opera stuff goes out tomorrow at 3pm! Wooooo!!!!

12:39PM - Sontag aktualisieren

Update time!

Classes started wednesday and all is well. I'm taking Choir, Studio, Lessons, World Music, Human Nutrition, and Linguistics. Everything seems pretty interesting so far. Hopefully things stay that way. ha ha.


I also had a couple auditions this week, one for opera stuff this year and the other for choir placement. I felt very good about the Opera audition and okay about the choir one. Choir is not really a priority this year for me... plus I had an early audition that I walked in the rain to get too. Not too worried about it. I also just got an e-mail telling everybody what things we are going to be working on this year.


autumn OPERA SCENES

winter L'ELISIR D'AMORE by Donizetti

spring LA CALISTO by Cavalli

We'll find out soon who is cast in what, but its nice to finally know what we will be working on.

In other new's. Weird Al has yet again given my people a themesong to be respected.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mBGODdzzVw

bwa ha ha ha

have a good one.

Current mood: Spicy Lube!

1:09AM - feel the love

Okay,

So here is a an amazing conversaiton I had with my roomate last night. Keep in mind that this is all in jest... And this is a reason that my roomate and I are friends. bwa ha ha ha


ps: its all true.


not


or is it?


Shelendra4: you know, you have actally made my life better by being such a bitch... let me explain... By making my life unbarable you have given me the oppertunity to truly appericiate everything else around me... because anything is prefferable to being around you... Thank you... Thank you for that. It may sound a little masochistic, and it probablly is, but you have given me a gift. Eat shit and die bitch, because god knows I will kill you one day... But I will also stop to smell the flowers first...
[23:02] Godpasta: perhaps flowers I have genetically engeneered to wash the whore out of you eyes with acid. And if you wern't such a needy little witch I wouldn't have to stay around for every 'Katie, I need to cuddle" or 'kate, I need to talk about feelings'. I did nothing to you you've done this all to yourself
[23:03] Shelendra4: Hence the masochism.
[23:03] Shelendra4: but you are the perfect vessel for it
[23:04] Godpasta: By the way, you owe me for the fucking hearing aids you loud faux opera singing midget
[23:04] Godpasta: ive heard retarded pond toad with better voices that that toxic waste that comes from you loudness hole
[23:05] Shelendra4: Coming from you, those are like kisses from Jesus, Mary, Joseph, all the saints, as well as a high five from God itself.
[23:06] Godpasta: too bad they all hate you because you are a fucking dirty sinner
[23:07] Godpasta: go back to vegas, tramp. Your pimp wants you to come back and do a can can dance on the stage
[23:09] Shelendra4: Real mature, Kate. Tell me, how many more years is it till you can finally get your certificate for graduating 5th grade? I swear, they taught me better come backs in pre-school. Well... I really shouldn't hold your mental handycap aghnst you.... You were born that way. And yet you try to tell me that god hates me? God made me beautiful... Tell me Kate... What has god given you besides hemorides?
[23:12] Godpasta: I have a pooor education? Me? What, did you miss the whole part of the education where they teach you spell? handycap?
[23:12] Godpasta: hemorides?
[23:13] Godpasta: I blind paralized asian elephant with brain damage could type a correcty spelled word more times than you in a sentence
[23:14] Shelendra4: I learned about grammer in Germany, first of all.. You know, the land of awsome where the spelling makes sense. And yes, those elephants probablly would... but they would also be doing it in their chink language, not in english... dumbass.
[23:16] Godpasta: maybe if you stopped drinking and got a job maybe you could pay for spelling lessons
[23:16] Godpasta: I hear a second grade tutor is open
[23:17] Shelendra4: Uh, and jeprodize my creativity? No thank you... And for your information, secondgraders have no way in hell of visualizing one ounce of my brilliance.
[23:17] Shelendra4: You just don't understand the mind of an artist.
[23:17] Shelendra4: typical
[23:17] Shelendra4: but again, I am above holding that over your head.
[23:17] Shelendra4: unless you continue on acting like a baby
[23:18] Godpasta: what are you going to do with your 'brilliant' music degree? serve french fries or deliver pizza? I wouldn't use an arts degree to line my rats cages, its not even worth shitting on
[23:19] Shelendra4: good thing you are not getting one, isn't it? And I can't speak about my future to you... I doubt you would understand... but no, I will not be serving lowly humans their fattening food. My field, only touches those of a higher intelect. Do not worry yourself with it.
[23:23] Godpasta: higher intelect translates to fucking bullshit, you'll serve the fake shallow assholes of upper class while you eat ramen for the rest of your life, at least Im in college for a legitimate reason: a decent salary! Who knows, I might be one of those shallow assholes THROWING AWAY money to see some loud bitch pelt her life away
[23:23] Godpasta: say...you preform for a fee, thats makes you a regular whore
[23:23] Godpasta: you'll be an actual whore though
[23:24] Godpasta: that will be the only way to pay the bills
[23:24] Shelendra4: All musicians know and accept that they will suffer for tieir art.... Though I can see that this consept is beond you
[23:25] Godpasta: again were back to masachism
[23:37] Shelendra4: as it should be

8:25AM - Shannon's adventures in Deutschland!

Interestingly enough... I never made it home... In fact, you could say that I am in a strange place far far from home.

heh

So I missed my flight to DC because my initial flight to Frankfurt was delayed for like... oh... an hour and a half. Just enough time to haul ass to the gate *or try too if we wern't acosted by securety 2 times*.... My ruecksak was being searched when we found out that the gate had closed. I guess about a billion people's flights being delayed is not cause enough for an airport to maby.. you know.. delay this flight for about 20 fucking minutes.

But... We were alive and together. The airport also put us up in a very nice hotel for the evening and also included dinner and breakfast. Which is a lot better than the last time I was in this situation... being by myself and having to a) not eat and b) pay for my food once any friggi'n food places were open.... fuckers...

I also bought a day of wireless internet... which is good... and other than the fact that I blew a few gaskets getting it to work last night... *it works just about anywhere but my room you see*, things are great.

Anyway, everything was straightened out and I'll be ariving home today later in the evening. So woot. I can't wait. Not the best way to end an amazing trip... but it could be a lot worse. Besides, it wouldn't be an adventure if shitt didn't go wrong.

Current mood: sleepy

7:42PM

Funny!!!

http://www.penny-arcade.com/comic/2006/03/22

Inquiring minds want to know... People with green eyes... is it true? I'm only half green myself... but they look fuzzy sometimes...

I'm tired and need to take a short nap before I start packing... packing... wow. I've just lived in this place for 6 weeks and now I have to leave it. Its just an interesting feeling, since usually when I'm this setteled in a place I stay for at least a little longer.

Oh well... journey on and all that. But I'll be back... And hopefully speaking the language a little better.

Also to add to the list... salads... I will miss those... and all the pumpkin stuff! And thinking of Michael Jackson every time I go to the wc!

Er... anyway...

1:08AM - Why am I not in bed yet?

Posting posting posting... hmmmm....

I've still been a little sick, but it seems that I'm at that really shitty part of the sick that means you are going to get better soon. Hopefully my infaluable logic is wise in its assumption.

I'm sleepy, this post is going to be silly.

So this is my last weekend in Europe... for now. It has been quite a stay. I have learned a great deal... mostly through observation. Going to classes, Masterclasses, Concerts.... hearing loads of people... Of what to do, and not do. I have seen lots of places, which I will eventually put up all of my pictures for. Gone to several museaums and learned a lot about some of the history at least. Many books.

I came here sort of wondering if I was on the right path with things. One thing that I can say is that this trip has given me a chance to not worry about that. What will happen will happen. I will inevatably be lead to things, possibly very different than I am now. If I just stick with what makes me happiest, I'll be all right. For now, the music thing is pretty groovy *to put in the lightest way possible*, so I'll stick with it. Plus, I've been able to get over my fear of practicing on my own.... Its nice to sing every day, even if I think I'm not doing my best.

List time!

Things I Miss about America:

~Pottys everywhere
~Tons of ice in my drinks
~My Roomate and Friends
~Squirles
~Not having to fight evil, ninja, pigions
~The ban on smoaking


Things I'm Going to Miss About Graz:

~The amazing Beer
~The amazing Coffee
~The amazing pasteries, though thankfully I can get just as good back home
~Hearing German everywhere, even if it is silly Austrian-ized German
~Randomly going to "classical" music concerts just about everywhere
~Not having to cook for myself
~Amazing public transportation, which is also very energy and environmentally conciencious
~The friends I have made here
~Mountains, Castles, Magic, Temmels Icecream
~Getting a shot of schnaps after every meal
~Cheap, amazingly tasty, organic fruits and veggies
~The beautiful archetecture
~Euro's look pretty and are worth more than the Dollar

Things I'm Not going to Miss about Graz:

~Smelly People
~Not being able to be loud without being stared at
~The smoking



That's at least a good start to my list.

And now for the fanalie: http://www.tallyhall.com/video.php?v=1133570630.mov#theater


If it doesn't come up right away, go to the music video's and watch the Banana Man song. I would like comments about this please. It sums up my life right now.

11:14PM - This is what happens when you skip meals you dope!

So... have had a shitty few days. Mostly due to the fact that I've been pretty sick. Got some meds today, so hopefully those will start to help. I can't blame the sickness for my bad attitude though... even though it would be very convienient. I havent gotten too much done because I've eather been sleeping, doing a few errands, and screwing around online. I wish I knew where the line between needing to rest and being lazy was.

In other news, I need to give a quick shout out to the voice in my head, which just made a really funny joke.

Me: Why can't I be cute like the people in the manga?
VIMH: But you are! Just look at that punnum!

Thanks voice... Forever known as Vihm *since that seems to flow better*.

*deep breath*

Stop Bitching.

*deep Breath*

Go to bed...

*deep breath*

Okay...

12:37AM - Its been a hard days night.

Yo

Had an interesting few days, but all is good now.

The meeting with Mom'o went very well. She made it here and we have been having dinner and gone to a concert. I was not perpared, however, for my reaction the next day. I guess seeing her really threw me off a bit... I mean, things are good between us, but they are still a few blocks short of great or better. I guess I was seeting some sort of comfort because, heck, I'm seeing someone from back home. Not that I'm terribly homesick, but these things happen. Anyway, it has been a painfully long time since I was able to get that kind of comfrot from my mother, especially not in the last few years. I guess it hurt me a little. Though thats, of course, not entirely her fault.

The next day (yesterday) I had a mock audition. I did fairly well, didn't recieve any negative comments and I did get some compliments.... But I just felt like I wasn't there. I psyched myself out so much with worry and other feelings I couldn't quite describe. Part of it had to do with seeing my mother. I feel as if I have to be Super-child, around her. Because of her lack of faith in me and my ability to succede concerning certain things... I feel as if I have to work that much harder to prove that I'm all right, that my existance is legitimate and honorable, and that I am doing the great majority with out her help. I am not, however I might wish, a super-anything. I'm good at things, perhaps even great at a few things... but certanly not clear of faults, imperfections, and (lets face it folks) humanity. So going into a situation where staying sane largly relies upon your ability to accept the fact that you make mistakes and to just learn from them and let them go (something I have never been good at) ... yea... Had myself a very silly, irrational, completely over emotional day. I was able to talk it out though, and in the evening it was honestly overshadowed by a live production I saw on television of Mozarts "The marrage of Figero" with that Anna Netrebko person as Suzana. It was pretty fucking weaird. But I kind of liked it.

Moving on, today I had a very fine day. Classes went well. I practiced. I had a little nap. I read some (for fun no less). Spent some time with my mother (who was on very good behavior). And saw a concert in which I witnessed a triumph and wonderful opertunity of several friends. Live orchestra concerts are the best.

Tomorrow, I embark on a trip to Salzburg. It is going to be great fun, especially the leaving at 5:30am bit... Part of the adventure though! I plan on taking pictures and posting them slowly, as is my way. I will make some sort of post, probablly, upon my return to my Graz heim. Busy week ahead, but a good one I hope. I am singing in a lieder concert the following weekend. We rehersed my piece in class today (as well as the others,all of whom were charming). I feel that it went well, especially since I only chose my piece earlier this week and it was the first time my accomplanist and I had run it through together. Its going to be fun times though.

All right, off to pack, shower, and bed for me. Kudos to anyone who actually reads through all my rambelings. I think that livejournal should have some sort of gold star setting. Goodnight. ^_^

Current mood: Liking the adventure thing.

5:05PM - This is how much my roomate loves and misses me.

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v97/godpasta/?action=view¤t=apartment.flv

10:01PM

Apparently I have a Mantra : I'll let whatever happen when it happens if I feel like it. Until then, I'm just going to concentrate on my studies and try to have fun.

Thanks Buddy!

The master class went really well today. I mean really well. At least, I went into it with a great attitude and was receptive to what was said, which made it easier to work and to listen. I also took some really great notes, as did my friends. There were some really great observations made... lots of things for me to apply to my other learnings. Which seem to revolve on learning the language and letting the text and the music guide your actions. Rather than acting, being; or experiencing. Makes sense doesn't it? Heh.

Lately i've been having some interesting thoughts about my relationship with music lately. More of a personification, not that I needed help with that. Its always been an intimate part of my life... and this summer I really think that Its developing or is beginning to develop into more of an adult relationship. Realizing that it is not perfect, all of it doesn't apply to me, that I have my own shortcommings towards it, that it takes constant work and communication... and that it never fails to turn me on. Sometimes I wonder, if music was personified as a god, spirit, or being, what it would think of my obsessive adoration? Maby someday I will have the oppertunity to ask it-him-her-whatever-probablly not but its fun to imagine.

My mother is flying into Graz this Tuesday to see me. The trip was a gift from my stepfather-her husband. I am excited to see her. She is just so happy to be over here and have an oppertunity to hear me sing with all of the other amazing singers here. We have been getting along much better lately, and hopefully, are developing a good adult relationship... It will be nice to hang out with her in the evenings and show her around. My bio-Vatter is also coming to visit me here for the same reason, though later. Both he, my mother, and step father made it possible for me to be here. And the fact that they want to spend more money to just see me here in "my element" is just... well you get the picture...

Ah... I could just live here... And you know, thats entirely possible. Its a happy though. I'll sleep on that. ^_^

Current mood: Wienerschnitzel

7:22PM - So yea...

Things have been progressing well here, I think. This past week, I delt with some interesting small-ish drama, but nothing too big and things worked out very well. There was some confustion as to weather I was in the concert or the opera studio here at AIMS. I must have made something unclear at some point. In anycase, I decided I wanted to be in the concert studio and work on german art song (Lied). However, when we were assigned voice teachers and coaches, I was given an opera coach! The only problem with that is, I didn't recieve any Lied to study. Hee hee. However, I spoke with T.K., the director of the programme and we got it all sorted out. I don't exactally have any songs to learn yet, but I was asked by my new coach if I would like to resurect a lied I studied some time ago and preform it on a master class for pianists. I said yes of course, and thats what I'll be doing tomorrow afternoon. I think and hope that it should go well. If nothing else, it will provide a great learning experience.

There have also been some wonderful concerts this week... There are student recitals every monday and wednesday, and that's always very interesting. You basically sign up to do those on your own, but its great to get to know all the different voices here. I'll be singing on my first one next wednesday night. ^_^ There was also the first super concert with orchestra on thursday night. There were some amazing Beethoven pieces. The Overture from Leonore, a Duet for Tenor and Soprano called Nei giorni tuoi felici. Not sure if it's from anything. And a concert aria called Ah perfido! that a friend of mine sang. There was a pause then we got to hear from my good friend Richard Strauss and what is, right now at least, probablly my favorite opera... Namely: Der Rosenkavalier. Two of the most famous pieces were selected from that work. They were the presentation of the rose duet, Mir ist die Ehre widerfahren for Soprano and Mezzosoprano. Then they did the big last duet, Marie Theres'...Hab' mir's gelobt Ist ein Traum, kann nicht wirklich sein, for two sopranos and one mezzosoprano. If you don't know the opera well, I'll just say that there are all complicated love songs. If you do know the opera at all, you know how moving that music can be especially when its in your face like that.

So yes, exciting time. Also went to the local pool today. It was nice to just relax and soak up some sun. The great company helped as well. I think thats another amazing thing about this trip.

10:49PM

some vienna pictures are up guys. not all, but a good interesting few. ^_^

http://s82.photobucket.com/albums/j244/Shanzabar/?sc=4

11:31PM

Okay, made it back from the Vienna trip alive and well. Took lots of pictures for those who are interested. More on this and some actual pictures tomorrow after I've had some sleep and things. I am exaustedly happy.

9:52PM

So I had this dream where I was a closeted bisexual/lesbian in a small school occupied mostly by gorgeous, talented women. Then I woke up and realized this was my life. This is one of those times where I wish I could draw so that I could post a wacky web comic full of delightfully charged antics and shenanigans.

In other news, things have been going very well. It has been a busy, slightly volatile and productive first week of classes. I have German Language class, Audition Training, Lesson, Coaching, Lied class, Voice studio, Piano studio, German diction which I may or may not decide to go too, and personal rehearsal.

There have also been some really wonderful concerts so far. The first big one was of the faculty singing. I’m not sure if I have simultaneously sobbed and then laughed my head off in the span of an hour and a half as I did that night. Then yesterday there was the first concert featuring singers of AIMS. Lovely. Being around in studio’s and classes has also given me the opportunity to hear some truly marvelous singers. You learn so much by watching others, as well as by teaching them. We all have the opportunity to give comments, and I don’t do that all time, but it’s still good to get that part of the brain engaged.

This Friday through Saturday I will be accompanying some friends from school as well as my teacher (with whom I decided to study with in this programme) to Vienna. That’s right. It hasn’t really hit me yet that we are going, but I’m sure it will at the crack of dawn tomorrow when we hop the train to go over there. It’s only about a 2 and a half hour ride, which is not bad at all. We’ll be staying till Sunday and trying to soak up everything we can in that span of time. I plan on taking lots of pictures. Woot!

Till later my friends!

6:24AM - Fom the Future!

I made it! Woot! I'm 6 hours ahead of eastern time, which means I'm speaking to you from the future. People will speak German in the future, make a note of it.

Traveling went well. Not too many hastles for me or my traveling buddies. We had 8 from my school go in all. It was a fairly long trip, mostly because none of us got any sleep really. They gave us dinner and a movie and stuff (and free drinks) on the plane and by the time all that was over, they didn't have the lights turned off for very long before we landed in Munich. So no sleep.

A few of my friends had baggage lost, so hopefully they will be found very soon. Other than that, after we got off of the plane we were met by Tom King, and friends. Next was getting keys, exchanging monies, getting internet, getting a bus pass, going back to the bank to give them a copy of my passport since I'm using travelers checks, and taking a quick shower since I smelled a little bit.

After that, we all went down to the common room/ lunch area place for a presentation by Tom King and introduction of all the faculty and staff. There are a lot of really well respected professionals attending. It was a little intimidating and at the same time, wonderful. This was helped by the fact that Tom kept reassuing us all that they wanted nothing more than to help us young singers attain something while here. I havent associated with many people who do what I eventually want to do, and yesterday I was in a room full of them. And than we all ate like ravenous wolves and I headed back to my room for some more organizing and to meet with the internet guy to hook me up.

Today, I'm attending my friends body movement class, working out a little maby, taking a tour of the city and practicing with my accompanist since I sing for all the peoples tomorrow. I'm nervous, and thats all right. I'm just going to try and have fun. Imagine, having fun with my singing? I would say it hasn't happened in a while, but that is a blatant lie, I love it every time I sing I just don't make enough time for it.

More later, and maby some pictures, we'll see. Also, depsite the fact that Germany lost yesterday... They go on to win the cup! Glory forever to the Muterland!

Current mood: In Graz Baby!

11:39AM

Oh yea, and Germany Plays Italy today in the semi finals of the World Cup. Needless to say, Germany's going to win. I don't care what the facts turn out to be!

Current mood: FIFA

10:29AM - Roads go ever every on.

So... Its just a few short hours before I hop on a plane and start making my way to Europe for the first time. Not gonna lie, I'm a little nervous. Not about the flying or anything, though getting through airports is always anoying, but what happens when I get there? This will be the first time I've been able to study music and language so intensly. No other classes to distract... I guess I get the feeling that its going to put some things into perspective. That, and I'm goign to start doing research for grad schools while I'm over there. Thinking about the future always... makes me very paranoid among other thigns. I am confident that I will live the live that I like and make the right decisions... Its just all the waiting to see what I will do that buggs me. It would be ever so convienient if I could just read up on my own life so that I was prepaired for everything. Or life in general... I bet I could make a lot of monies with a book like that. Blah. I'll get to that when it comes.

For now, I have to take it one step at a time till I figure out the game and can start jumping. I'll be online and will try to upload the billions of pictures I have been comanded to take by my roomate. I have this photobucket thing which should make it pretty easy. Also, anyone who wants a postcard e-mail me your address and I'll do it. Okay... here goes... *Takes deep breath*

Current mood: excited

11:26PM - Okay...

Sorry guys. No more attention getting emo shit.

12:10AM

Current mood: Every word is true

3:09AM

Now... I know many of you believe that I am on crack. This may be true. And this may be all the evidence you need. I do this for you my friends.

http://smg.photobucket.com/albums/v97/godpasta/?action=view¤t=MVI_9735.flv


Brought to you by Godpasta, that lovely roomate of mine who records my antics for all to see.

enjoy. I know its idiotic, but I had fun.